Anonymous asked: so whats ur issue ? looking at ur blog i can tell u are depressed and suicidal but why

Since i was little, i grewup around drugs and partying 24/7 my dad is in a gang and additeced to drugs, ive seen way to much do you know how much it sucks seeing you dad fucked up all the time you see him, lost all his weight bags under his eyes seeing him down out and fall to the ground  and you try to help but he thinks your the bad person, he doesnt know what hes doing wrong cause hes so fucked up now cause he is a big dealer now, it sucks that he is a addited :( now since then i used to be really into drugs lastyear and this summer i binged because it made me feel better with my bestfriend cause i had deperession axitey highigh axitey, i have horrible family problems it sucks so fucking much, everyone judges me because the way i look or the way i come out as, i try so hard to be nice and make people happy and i just keep getting treated and bullied everyday harassed “phone calls/texts/facebook/tumblr ect” When they have no idea what the fuck im going threw at all, i get judged so much for what i do, i party alot cause i love it and its fun but i also do it cause it makes me numb feel good you know? i can barley eat anymore i feel sick everytime i feel fat it sucks so fucking much, my parents and whole family wants to send me to detox im so scared :( plus my ex is a piece of fucking shit made my life 10x worse, i just wanna be high all the time baked just chillin man fuck nigga gotta chill thats alll